Dreamthievery
Jul. 1st, 2008 02:58 amOh, unfair! Bitterly unfair. I lay awake counting, trying to lull my own mind into sleep, and fell into a doze without realizing. I entered into a dreamspace where I was a younger self, tormented with sleeplessness, and continuing that same count to put myself to sleep, still swearing I would give it up at one-thousand and go do something more active for a bit before trying sleep again. I distinctly recall that I sat with my back up against a nursery bookshelf, holding to my chest an illustrated work of Aesop's Fables, the one with the blue cover and the fox and grapes engraved upon it. As I worked my way to the eight-hundreds I had to repeat for losing count, and felt myself nodding off against the shelf, but I was still cognizant on reaching one-thousand.
Cognizant, but asleep. In the dream within the dream I was somewhere pale and soft, with someone familiar singing the sweetest lullabye I had ever heard, in a light whispery tenor. The song gave my conscious mind chills, redolent with that kind of painful nostalgia that only snatches of dreamsongs can bring. Greedy to remember what seemed so desperately familiar I clutched at the tune, like a thief I dragged the few bars I had heard speedily toward the waking world.
I am awake now, with three bars and two lines of lyrics which, while sweet, are sadly devoid of something when heard in the waking world.
I am awake, bitterly awake again.
Cognizant, but asleep. In the dream within the dream I was somewhere pale and soft, with someone familiar singing the sweetest lullabye I had ever heard, in a light whispery tenor. The song gave my conscious mind chills, redolent with that kind of painful nostalgia that only snatches of dreamsongs can bring. Greedy to remember what seemed so desperately familiar I clutched at the tune, like a thief I dragged the few bars I had heard speedily toward the waking world.
I am awake now, with three bars and two lines of lyrics which, while sweet, are sadly devoid of something when heard in the waking world.
I am awake, bitterly awake again.